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Thursday, July 29, 2010

Satisfaction

 

People will spend their lives pursuing happyness. It is the ultimate goal. No matter what path you choose, everyone wants to be happy, fulfilled. Some seek it through money, through fame, through contacts and position. Others through religion, faith, belief. 

Drugs, alcohol, sex, books, movies, music, cliques, groups, furniture, stocks, degrees... what does it take to make you happy? I have spent many years, searching for happyness. Searching for joy, and peace of mind. Trying to find that one thing, that one moment, that will bring me to such bliss and security, that we all seek. I have spent a life trying to find the perfect woman, the perfect relationship, that will complete me and show to the world what a happy and complete person I am. 

Until the day I met Brooke, I had not realized what a waste, my life had been. I had never seen a person so truly happy before. I saw the joy shining from her eyes. The way she moved, the way she laughed, the way she grinned like a chesire cat over the smallest things... I could not understand it. There had to be a secret. She knew something I didn't. She had something I did not. What was it? Her clothes? Her style? Her job? Her family? Maybe she had a boyfriend who made her feel this way? I did not know what it was, but it was something. And I had to have it. 

She stood peering over the edge of the fountain, holding out the rest of her cone to the sole duck floating on the water. After he had carefully taken it from her hand, she sat down next to me.
"What is it Ty?"
"How do you do it? Why are you so happy?"
"Why are you unhappy?"
"I don't know. I try so hard. I have a great job, a great family, amazing friends, an expensive condo, and my car is just sweet. I have had beautiful and lovely girlfriends, and yet every night I stare at the ceiling and wish it would crush me. I am not suicidal... I just sometimes wish something would smite me. That the God I can't believe in would reach out with his finger and push me into the ground. I am tired of seeking happyness. It seems like it taunts me... always just out of reach, until it seems like nothing more than a dream, a hallucination, something people invent in their minds to keep from giving up on life. And then I see you, and you are happy, genuinely, and it shines in your eyes, and I have to know why. I have to know how."

"Oh Ty. The biggest mistake people make in the pursuit of happyness, is that they search for it. Happyness is not something that can be sought, or pursued. You can spend your entire life chasing after it, you might as well try and capture the wind into a jar, or a wave on paper. You will never find happyness until you stop searching for it. Happyness will never come until you are satisfied. And those who are satisfied do not seek."

"How can I be happy if I settle for less?"

"You speak ignorance. Satisfaction has nothing to do with settling for less, but until you understand the difference, you will never be satisfied, and will never be happy. If you are satisfied, you will recognize your limits, you will recognize opportunities and the lack thereof. You will make the most out of your life but will not obsess about that which is beyond your power. You will enjoy the moments you have been given, and you will realize that happyness is not the end of the journey. It is the journey. And the road is satisfaction." 

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FIRST!


Posted 7/29/2010 4:33 PM by exist_without_trying - reply

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@exist_without_trying - hahahahaha. Oh baby. 


This may become a new trend, what with you and maniacsicko arguing over first. 
I hope it becomes a trend. 
=D 
Posted 7/29/2010 4:34 PM by Starshine_Faerie Xanga Premium Member - reply

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whenever I saw this, the first thing I thought was "I can't get no satisfaction." hahahaha.


and yes, you can't be happy if you "settle for less" but, that is all relative!!

Posted 7/29/2010 4:34 PM by ohletitbe - reply

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How does one stop searching?

Posted 7/29/2010 4:35 PM by RazielV - reply

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I'm so happy for you!!

...because i'm satisfied...:D

Posted 7/29/2010 4:37 PM by exist_without_trying - reply

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FOURTH! =D

Posted 7/29/2010 5:20 PM by stephened Xanga True Member - reply

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interesting outlook....

:) nice change of perspective. 
Posted 7/29/2010 5:22 PM by ourblasphemousrumors - reply

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I am terribly sorry to be such a bitch. Really, truly, I am. But if I said nothing... I would hate myself. Happiness is spelled with an i, my dear.


Ok, reading the rest of the entry now.


This isn't the best thing you've ever written, but its not bad, not bad. It has a good point, and I think that comes through very strongly. Its often easier to accept a viewpoint if it comes about in dialogue, from a character, rather than from the author's voice itself.


On the other hand, this blog makes me think of another one, and so I'm giving you a link.


http://materasu.xanga.com/729978434/the-secret-to-happiness/

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happiness. eh. what does it matter?

Posted 7/29/2010 5:30 PM by Paul_Partisan Xanga True Member Xanga Premium Member - reply

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@Paul_Partisan - the spelling thereof or actual attainment? 


@quodmenutriut rofl. way to chew my butt off. I purposely wrote happyness. I do that since I saw the movie. 
But no I don't think you're a bitch for saying that. =D It's you, I know you. =]]
@ourblasphemousrumors - Thank youuu. =D =D 

@stephened - HAHAH!!

@exist_without_trying - I am too my love. =]] OMG MINNI!!!!!




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i love the message behind this. i have tried to say the same thing as well. i love reading your posts :)

Posted 7/29/2010 6:33 PM by Findingvanessa Xanga Premium Member - reply

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"How can I be happy if I settle for less?"


That's the thing....one will NEVER be happy if one settles for less. Its impossible to live at your greatness potential when you're connected to "less." Wonderful post

Posted 7/29/2010 8:05 PM by Just2tellyouthis - reply

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but what is the destination? you didnt say that, smarty pants. :P

Posted 7/29/2010 9:16 PM by SlackerSociety Xanga True Member - reply

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This is great! I guess you can learn to be happy after all. :D

Posted 7/30/2010 8:44 AM by ltk19862000 - reply

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@SlackerSociety - If I provided you with *all* the answers, it would not be your own journey. 


How's that for a smarty-pants answer? =D 
@Findingvanessa - =D thank you. =D I'm glad the message came across. ;]]


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You're seriously talented! I really enjoyed this and liked the message.

Posted 7/30/2010 7:51 PM by my_little_niche - reply


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